Two years later. And not a blog to be posted. Blame it on my absolutely hectic life. Or blame it on forgetfulness. However, this time will be different, if only for a few months. One of my other blogs (that I must post daily on) is a photography project - a picture a day for 365 days. So we shall see.
The year started out relatively uneventful. NYE at home, NYD (night) at work. Found out that I will remain on my current shift until June (unless more people are hired) and on the same day, I received a notice that my rent was late. Pretty frustrating, especially considering that my bank sends the checks out automatically to my apt complex, and because of a similar situation a little while back, I now have the checks (which are due on the 1st) sent out so they arrive almost a week and a half earlier than the due date. So now I have to try to sort this all out, plus worry about paying the 10% late fee....and all this comes crashing down on my head at once.
Fortunately, though, the personal life seems to be turning around. Quick summary about the past few months: went to a class for my new job where I started sort of talking to one of the guys, and then that just blew up in my face. Another guy (a friend and coworker of the first guy) was super-interested, but there wasn't any spark (for me) there, and that basically was an awkward situation squared. And it didn't help that I still liked the first guy. Enter a person from my actual workplace. I was interested in him even before I left for the class....so when I returned, and went to a little get together ANOTHER coworker had, I thought that might have been a perfect opportunity. Let's just say...we had a bit too much to drink...and I do not remember a thing (if anything) that happened after a certain point in the night. Next morning was pretty uncomfortable, mainly because I wasn't sure if we had made out. *rolling my eyes at all of this now....* So work has been a little weird, but then again, he's always made me feel really shy when our shifts cross.
So as I'm wondering what's going on, and trying to play it cool at work, I happen to strike up a conversation with a guy I knew when I was active duty. He randomly commented on a picture; I posted on his wall, and then all of a sudden, we were chatting. Like, a lot. And over the course of simply 12 hours (and part of that was spent sleeping), we just sort of clicked. I can't even explain it. It's been crazy. I mean, I had always thought he was attractive...very attractive (I'll even "go there" and say HOT!) but at the time, I was still pretty messed up over my ex, and he was doing his thing. It never occurred to me that there was anything there. Come to find out, there WAS an attraction back then, but of course I was too blinded to see it.
But back to the here and now...it's been like a whirlwind. It's like I'm a teenager again: the giddiness, the butterflies, the giggles.... It's such an amazing feeling! And I think one of the things I like the most, is that he's respectful (not to mention intelligent as all hell). He might be THINKING one thing, but he's never said anything over the top.
Probably the craziest parts are that we started talking about Chinese astrology, and he mentioned his sign, and when I mentioned mine, he said that our signs are like THE most compatible ones. I thought he was just saying that, but sure enough, when I googled it, we're a 10 on a scale of 1-10. Our regular astrology signs are very compatible, too. And then the other thing is, if someone were to ask me to describe my "type," it's basically a description of Jon Knight. The characteristics that are most appealing to me (dark hair, light eyes, tall, great smile, Roman nose, intelligent, sweet, funny....) they ARE Jon. But last night, I realized that they describe this guy perfectly. I keep thinking, "this is too good to be true." I'm trying to push those thoughts out of my head, and just go with the flow, but the pessimist in me, the innocent, trusting, loving part of me that always ends up getting hurt, is just waiting for the ball to drop. In the meantime, however, I'm really enjoying this. The best way to describe it is that I love the feeling of falling in love, although I'm not quite ready to call this "love." It's just that really light-headed, smiley feeling you get when you see a message from someone, or think about them.....and knowing that they're thinking about you, too. :)
Hopefully this is something I can "keep you posted" on!! Keep your fingers crossed for me!!
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